lost 4 ever

"u know how hw much sm1 means 2 u only wen u miss them",i.e 2 say wen ur far away from them.so,true.not only in the case f people ,but all material things too. this used 2 b one f ma fav sms in my mob.and i ws struck by dis harsh n bitter truth only wen i lost my mob.it felt like sm part f my body hd been cut off.i felt sooo sad, coz i hd lost my very precious,adorable blac mob,only due 2 my carelesness n nothin else.i shudder 2 think f dat fateful day (monday)wen i hd left 2 calicut 4 an entrance xam.and as foolish as it may sound,i left my mob in my hand bag n left it outside de xam hall.think i even 4 got 2 switch it off.uughhh..shit maan!! hw i wish i cud rewind those event bac.but who wud hv thought f de possibility f gettin it stolen nd dat too in a college where students came from diff districts 2 write an exam.dat crook who dared 2 steal it frm my bag,wat mean nd cheap standards was he raised wid?.hw cm he reached colge nd stil not mature enough 2 control such evil temptations.i cnt stop cursin him.the fact dat i lost it is not half as painful as that which makes me think dat sm stranger.whoever d cheap guy who hd stolen it,in sm part f de world may still b readin my personal sms,viewin my beautiful snaps,njoyin my fav music which i recrded.mayb listenin 2 de songs i sang myself.uuughhh.dat really makes my blood boilin wid fury.
i cudnt sleep well dat night,partly thinkin f my foolishness nd partly due 2 de pain dat i wud never ever get it bac.hw caringly i used 2 treat it ,keepin it beside mu pillow even as i went 2 sleep.i thought f de days wen i used 2 get mis cals n it ws a cruel pleasure not 2 return those calls on purpose...he.he .i never usd 2 hv much balance nyways.and if sm1 realy wanna 2 talk 2 me y cant dey juz cal.ws also bit stingy in sms.nw i think i should hv been bit liberal in sendin sms 2 those who cared 4 me.alas! its too late.mayb sm1 cursed me 4 my stinginess or it ws god's way f punishin me.4 not carin 2 spread his wings f luv 2 all.cnt help thinkin f de time i usd 2 spend sittin in de porch legs stretched,watchin de drizzlin rain.holdin my cell.listenin2 sm sweet melodies i recorded in itz mp3. .......sm1   smwer  must b hvin a gud time wid my mob.i pray 2 god that he twists his arm.or fractures his leg,or let a cocunut fall on his head 2 say the least.and he bcmes paralysed .let his life b filled wid a series f misfortunes, dat de bloody guy vl regret hvin stolen my nokia 6020.hs he got de faintest idea dat am still mournin de demise f my sweet, sleezy lukin mob who's been wid me 4 de last 6 months or so.thogh didnt hve hundreds fans2 cal,de very few i did wer quite a big cmfort 4 me.it ws my way f stayin cnnected.i guess its gonna b along wait 4 me b4 i get a brand new version f nokia.

mobiles r an inevitable part f our lives.so y cant sm1 develop a software or smthing 4 de user's security so dat it dsnt get stolen.a feature dat only the owner can use it nd no1 else.(cn make use f de finger print technology)or sm buzzer alarm dat goess off as soon as sm1 lays der hands on it....hmm its de first time am hvin such wierd ideas.nyways its not my cup f tea.its 4 de techno whiz or manufacturers 2 dacide.mayb d time wnt b far.lest people like me frwn abt lost mobile........nd sulk in despair.

know thyself

who am i?
who am i? a very philosophical question ,but a very important one at that.we are often defined by the people with whom we constantly relate with,to whom we are responsible and to whom we should be grateful for a lot of things,for providing us security and comfort and who are really concerned about us .obviously we have to respect and follow their advice,but should it be at the cost of our own thoughts.if children are made to think in the same mode of thought as adults how will they grow intellectually,their thoughts will be constrained to follow only the path they are instructed to.this is mere enslavening of the young mind.it means they are robbed of their freedom to think for themselves.this will be a great hindrance to the overall well -being of a child and affect his sense of self -worth.for it is only when an individual is left at liberty without any pressures or mental constrains can enjoy total peace and be self-content.only then will he appreciate life with its ample opportunities and a innumerable paths of hope to tread.

at war with myself

well i think onecan enjoy ones life totally only when he is left at his own free will,to follow his own dreams n the desires of his heart,why are others so bothered.i was always taught in my school days to be very ambitious,goal centred and idealistic.but now i.ve come 2 realise that there's no place for idealism in dis world.i think im made yellow in my home.i need 2 sacrifice my little but ardent desire 4 de sake of others.it makes me feel very worthless n subservient, i hv been losin my self esteem a lot these days,that at times i feel like as if im dyin within myself each moment rather than living it.cryin dsnt help nor does blamin,so i just got 2 stoop dwn 4 others n let myself go,for if im not important 4 others im not important 4 myself too.